I feel like I am a tiny poof of air clinging to life. Such sad loneliness. Can’t get comfortable. Nothing feels right. Going through the motions trying to make sense of this strange predicament I am in. It is uncharted territory as I zigzag along trying to move forward. He and I were so close that it seemed like we were one person. Now I am trying to balance on one leg. Very wobbly, always on the verge of a fall. I will be fine but the transition is so painful. I need to talk to my best friend, and I do, but it isn’t the same.